Author Adelaide Green

“you’re beautiful” he whispered on our first date.

”I’m so lucky” he breathed on our three month anniversary.

“There will never been anyone else” he crooned at our one year anniversary.

The gifts kept flowing. The words kept on pace.

“Live with me, for I cannot live without you.”

Our worlds further conjoined, my stuff, his stuff, our stuff.

The ring it dazzled across from me, “marry me?” He asked in the dark restaurant, all eyes on us. My stomach sank, it didn’t feel right but there he was infront of me. “I can’t live without you, please?” His eyes saddened.

“Of course!” And there it was.

Then the world changed, maybe my lens changed. The light pure love we had, felt heavy. Much too heavy. His words they changed. Oh how they changed.

“I can’t tonight.” The “I’m working late.” Followed by “I was at the bank for three hours, you wouldn’t believe it.” 5e bank was closed, a national holiday. “I was there!” His voice angered. “I was there!” His voice now pleading. Who is he trying to convince?

“I can’t marry you. This isn’t working. You can stay here though.” My heart sank. I wanted to stay, maybe. My wings were shaking ready to fly. My heart was screaming stay, stay. His words rang through my ears, “no one will ever love you the way I do. No one.” His resounding “if you leave you’ll be alone. Forever.” Sang through the air. My wings said no it’s time to fly. I left.

he had met someone else. Loved someone else. But I realized no one, not even me was loving me. Not even me. I left. The fog lifted. My life was back, it was mine, sacred.

And now I look back 7 years later. My life is more than I could have imagined then. My heart has grown six sizes. My family has grown by 4. How blessed I am, despite my losses. How blessed I am that no one else would ever love me the way he did.